Wednesday, September 17, 2008
You make it easier when it's hard.
Today has been extremely,extremely tiring and I feel so drained. :(
The state of my mind and my family has been chaotic and terrible.
We were rushing and emotions have been thrown all over the floor.
And I still can't believe my mum actually said this
"kalau kau mcm gini kau tak kemas kau putos eh dgn Harris."
and ya,alot more...
I was very tired and my eyes were still like painful from all that crying before that...
I made like the stupidiest 'resolution' thinking that it'd make him happier by asking if we should have a time-out...
I guess after that,I just broke his heart...
I can't believe I did that without thinking properly...
But I really thought.... Gosh,I'm just naive I guess...
I've been crying like nobody's business and I was so afraid that after this I'm gonna lose him and everything else that we've worked so hard...
What was I thinking...*
I guess my heart continued to break...
I cried so much so that tears just rolled down...
I choked with every thought...
I really hope I can mend his heart again....
After everything that has been happening,I don't think I can take anymore heart-aches... I don't think my heart can take anymore...
My world just didn't seem to function...
& so I just stood still...