Thursday, November 8, 2007
This heart is not strong enough.
Been quite a while..yeah..
Been doing lotsa thinking lately and the thoughts that rummage through my mind.
Life itself is very...*.......*
Emptiness has found a spot,once again and I'm back to the place I've left my footprints a long time ago.
Sad,sappy songs didnt help burn the feelings I have inside.
I dont need someone to make me feel whole,I just wished someone could hear me scream.
I dont ever want to depend on anyone(for that matter) to feel happy.
It's hard sometimes,having to carry this heavy invisible load on my shoulders,every.single.day.
I'm done falling.I'm done hating.Not quite sure if I'm done loving.
I tend to hide my most honest,truest feelings inside.
If these walls could talk,what would they say,as they bare witness to all of my pain.
The burning tears that fall endlessly seems so.......empty.
I dont like these feelings anymore.
By now I should know
That in time things would change
So it shouldnt be so bad
So why do I feel so sad.
How can I adjust
To the way that things are going
It's killing me slowly
Oh I just want it to be how it used to be.