Sunday, September 16, 2007
The not-so-great Escape* {Reality Bites,damn hard}
I'm still alive...[LOL]The reason I'm bloggin' once again is coz I hav sooo many things dat I wanna get off my chest.They are: D doubts dats buried deeply in this very heart*
the never answerable questions that longs to be answered.
*me.
I really am at a lost sometimes..these few days actually..somehow I feel as if I'm d most evil person in this very world.I keep on hurting people's feelings..most of the time I don't even realize it.I hate it. God must hate me.I donno why I'm lyke this..Its gettin' more & more outta control and I'm losing my grip.Am I jinxed or something..? L.O.V.E is a just a four letter word but it sure isn't that simple alright..For others,being in love shld be a true blessing rtye? Its what everyone longs for but why do I feel as if I'm better off without it..? Probably coz the situation dat I'm facing ryte now..it kinda makes me hate myself for being d way I am..the last thing I wanna do is hurt him* but is that what I'm doing to him without me realizing it..?? My dear friend's advice still rings in my head:"Whatever it is,DONT toy with his feelings.." I was shock when I heard dat,I mean,was I really capable of doing that to someone..? I thot I was harmless..probably non-existant even but nonetheless..Hav I changed into this person whom I swear never to be but somehow that person looks exactly like me..??they say "its just a phase in life.soon it'll wear off..."part of me says its not even near d end.*it feels as if a vital part of me is dying.this heart.P.S I just dont wanna +hurt+anymore.